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Amber
13 May 2010 @ 09:42 pm

I have a new iPhone! Now I can post from my phone and so I shall. *post post post*

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Amber
04 April 2010 @ 07:45 pm
Ah Easter, how I enjoy your food. I made potato salad, strawberry salad (more of a dessert, really), green beans, and my first ham! 20 lbs of wonderful yuminess!!

Went to church, made breakfast for family and friends, put the ham in, took a nap with boyfriend, played games, ate dinner, and now watching a thing on PBS about volcanoes.

I love them! I love rocks! Ask me how much I love rocks at your own risk....

How was your Easter (or just another Sunday, if you prefer) invisible internet people?
 
 
Amber
26 March 2010 @ 01:09 pm
Oy vey, teaching is so much harder when it's the end of the quarter (trimester, semester, grading period, etc). All the kids run up to you and freak out. Example:

Girl in class: "What's my grade?! My dad will take away my car if I don't have a 3.0, can I do extra credit?!"
Me: "What, now?"
GiC: "Yes!!! Today!!"
Me: "....write me a paragraph in past-tense Spanish and I'll give you a few more points?"
GiC: "Thank you! You're the best ever!!" *hug*

And now PowerSchool (the grading system) isn't working, natch. As if it would work right when it's really needed. *sigh*
 
 
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Amber
24 March 2010 @ 12:03 am
I haven't posted here for a crapload long time, not because nothing has happened, but because so much has happened that I haven't been able to process it all in a cohesive way.

I feel like I should post things, at the very least so that I have a record to look back on later in my life. I always receive pen and paper journals, but don't write in them. I did however, used to post on here, so I feel like I could again. (even though all the minutia I think gets on Facebook anyways) Besides, my therapist says I should write things down, so I suppose this is the place to do it?

Not sure what to say now, and not sure who's reading this. Even though the heyday of LJ is over, and a lot of us have moved on from the high school/college age need to obsessively share every thought in our drama laden heads, this has always been a safe space for me. A place where RL friends can find things out and friends (acquaintances? strangers with an IP address?) give good advice to someone they don't know.

In that vein, welcome back to my LiveJournal. If you're reading this, let me know?

(And if you can't remember why this strange girl's inner thoughts are on your flist, let's talk and see where the path links up.)
 
 
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Amber
15 October 2009 @ 12:59 pm
Look at my kitty!!!!

Zach bought her for me for my birthday. I have named her "Missy". She has scratched me several times and sleeps on my pillow.

 
 
 
Amber
17 September 2009 @ 03:58 pm
I had an interesting day today. I'm student teaching in a 5th grade gifted class room. Love my kids, love my teacher, love my university supervisor, really love teaching, actually.

Today was a hard day tho. One little girl (E) had a breakdown because her best friend (like, holding-hands-at-recess-best-friend) and another girl in the class went to the Hannah Montana concert. Well, E told me that it was NOT b/c of Hannah Montana, but it totally was and she was so upset b/c she was jealous and mad and then guilty for being jealous (being a girl blows sometimes). So she started bawling in the middle of reading and I had to take her out to calm her down. She did much better after her cry, sometimes you just gotta.

But this afternoon I taught science and we did a model of the water cycle with dirt in tubs and plastic wrap and hot water and ice packs and my supervisor (JJ) was here. It went well enough, but very tiring and then I was talking to JJ afterwards and started to cry b/c I want to be perfect. But I'm not. And if my mistakes would only bite me in the butt, that would be ok, but I don't want to let my students down.

So, crying the morning, crying in the afternoon, crazy ADHD boys, and now to master teacher's house for a party.

And all I want is a big Boyfriend Hug.
 
 
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Amber
16 July 2009 @ 04:04 pm
I stumbled upon this today and knew I had to share: 40 Inspirational Speeches in 2 Minutes



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Amber
21 May 2009 @ 10:15 pm
Got a phone call from my dad today. Don, his best friend and my other dad/uncle/grandpa had a massive heart attack while driving down 45th. He put swerved off the road and hit a light post. The readout from the defibrillator said that he was dead before the truck even hit. We don't know when the funeral will be, either Monday or Tuesday, according to my dad.

I lost a very important piece of my life today. It's not fair in any way.
 
 
Current Mood: melancholymelancholy
 
 
Amber
18 May 2009 @ 04:17 pm
Well, I did it. I broke up with Kyle.

I'm slightly conflicted about it. In all honesty, it was the best thing for me (and him). If you can't see yourself with someone forever, you need to break it off once you realize that, right?

Right?

I think it's right, but it still hurts. It hurts a lot. I didn't know that breaking up with someone who you loved could be this painful. I know it sounds very cliched, but I feel like a piece of my heart has been shattered and left to float around so it can bump/slice into the rest of my heart.

And the worst part? I did it to myself in the beginning. I fell too hard when I didn't really want to. I changed too much of myself when I shouldn't have. I compromised too much of who I am.

And the worst part? I did it to myself in the end. I broke up with him. I decided that it wasn't going to work. I said that I couldn't deal with his problems.

I did it, all alone.

me
 
 
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Amber
15 May 2009 @ 12:29 pm
I feel like crap.

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I hate this feeling.
 
 
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